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Showing posts with label Discernment. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Discernment. Show all posts
Thursday, April 25, 2013
Holy Apostles College & Seminary
In approximately 18 days or so, I will be embarking on the task of earning my masters degree in theology from Holy Apostles College in Cromwell, CT. My masters degree will officially be an M.A. in Theology with a concentration in Church history. Plus, I have 6 years from the start date to complete the distance program. Realizing my dreams of not only getting an advanced degree, but also in what I want to do, is a beautiful thing. God is good and I have been truly blessed!
Some background: My love for history made itself apparent at a young age. I loved discovering things and finding out more information about them. It started with me wanting to be an archeologist. I loved dinosaurs (still do). I then moved on to a love of American history. I knew that we needed to know where we came from as a society to better understand ourselves and our state and move into the future. Finally, with my deeper investigation into my Catholic faith, I realized I had a new found love and desire to learn more about Church history. My grandfather had quite the effect on me as well. His love of history and his true desire to be a teacher (which he never did, sadly - formally at least) left a mark and urged me to truly find what I want to do with my life and then do it!
Let me tell you about how I got to this point. It started about a year and a half ago when I was preparing to take the GRE. A good buddy of mine sat me down in front of a computer and had me go to the website to register. He had apparently been talking to my wife (girlfriend at the time) and she told him I was putting it off...for no good reason. I was procrastinating and he just took me by the shoulders and had me go to a website. It was nice of him to do this, I realize now. Well, I took the test and I got a pretty decent score. I sent the results off to a few schools, not really finding a program in exactly what I wanted to do.
Fast forward to last summer; I sent off an actual application. Needless to say, I did not get in. However, I did e-mail the director asking if there was anything that I could do to improve my chances the next time and moving further in my quest. They were gracious enough to send me back an e-mail. I thought it was my GRE scores, but they said I shouldn't have a problem getting into any program with those. That was relief. I continued to search for a program and I started to really look at distance ones.
I knew that the Augustine Institute had a distance program. But, I wanted a school that was accredited which at this time the A.I. still is not. So I moved on. I also wanted a legitimately Catholic school, not just one in name only. I frequent a website called www.calledtocommunion.com. I've mentioned it before on this blog. A frequent commenter was asked to write a guest post. I was always impressed with his knowledge of argument and his well reasoned thinking. As part of his bio at the beginning of the article, I noticed that he was from Ohio, yet was completing his degree in Church history in Connecticut. I did a virtual double take. He mentioned his university and sure enough it was Holy Apostles. I decided to investigate more.
I wandered around their website (www.holyapostles.edu) and was absolutely impressed. My favorite part, besides the distance piece, was that they were accredited and were one of the Newman Society top Catholic schools in America. Orthodox teaching in line with the Magisterium! Everything seemed to be perfect for what I wanted to pursue. The price was competitive and something that I could swing over the next few years. I asked my priest from college to write another letter of recommendation and a few other professors from undergrad. They're friends really. I got through the application, the letters, and the other pieces needed pretty quickly. The one thing that kept me from submitting the whole packet was the entrance essay. I went through many drafts and revisions until it was perfect. It took a few months actually. Soon I sent everything in and prayed for the best.
It was a few weeks later when the response came. My wife called earlier and told me that she had a present for me. I was not thinking that it was the correspondence. I got home and saw the mail on the counter. I immediately planned for the worst. I had been in that position before and if I didn't get in this time, I was going to assume that this was not what God wanted me to do. I was about to have a vocational crisis!
I slowly opened the packet. I grabbed the letters inside and took the top sheet, nice paper too, and flipped it over. I read the first few words and then there it was "ACCEPTED"! I was jumping all over the living room in thanksgiving and dancing like a crazy person. I remember my wife saying something along the lines of "just wait until you start doing the school work. Try and remember this moment." I called family members and told them all the good news.
Over the next few months, I was finalizing everything that I needed in order to start as soon as possible. We talked finances, classes, and other things. I figured that I would start with the class that everyone needed - PHTH600 Philosophy for Theologians taught by a Dominican priest! I love the fact that I have a priest for a teacher. It's been a while.
So that brings us up to date. I've got all the course materials needed and now I'm just waiting to start. It really became official when I got the Holy Apostles e-mail account. Pray for me as I go along! This is an exciting time!
I think grandpa would be proud.
Monday, May 3, 2010
"He saves in time of trouble..."
Often in the course of life, a man must make some tough decisions. These decisions can and do affect not only him, but others as well. The true quest, as I am coming to find out, is not necessarily the end result, but the journey itself. Getting from point "A" to point "B" will undoubtedly happen. It is the way that one gets there that truly allows a man to grow into what he should become and must become in order to be what God wants him to be.
A true leader must make decisions that are tough and that others might not understand until they look back at a distance. A true Christian must take up His cross and follow Him. But His yoke is easy and His burden is light. We are not given more than we can handle. And Christ assures us that He is with us always, even unto the end of the age.
I don't know how much more obvious God can get. It is my perceptions, 'mis' or otherwise, that oftentimes get in the way of me truly seeing what the Lord has laid out for me. I am hesitant not because I don't trust God, but because I don't trust myself and my ability to make decisions. I know that I can, it is the act of doing that I seem to be shying away from.
I must take heed of the words, "Fear not, for I am with thee: turn not aside, for I am thy God: I have strengthened thee, and have helped thee, and the right hand of my just one hath upheld thee." -Isaiah 41:10.
Or these great words from the Old Testament that have always brought comfort to me, "My son, when you come to serve the LORD, prepare yourself for trials. Be sincere of heart and steadfast, undisturbed in time of adversity. Cling to him, forsake him not; thus will your future be great. Accept whatever befalls you, in crushing misfortune be patient; For in fire gold is tested, and worthy men in the crucible of humiliation. Trust God and he will help you; make straight your ways and hope in him. You who fear the LORD, wait for his mercy, turn not away lest you fall. You who fear the LORD, trust him, and your reward will not be lost. You who fear the LORD, hope for good things, for lasting joy and mercy. Study the generations long past and understand; has anyone hoped in the LORD and been disappointed? Has anyone persevered in his fear and been forsaken? has anyone called upon him and been rebuffed? Compassionate and merciful is the LORD; he forgives sins, he saves in time of trouble." -Sirach 2:1-11.
A true leader must make decisions that are tough and that others might not understand until they look back at a distance. A true Christian must take up His cross and follow Him. But His yoke is easy and His burden is light. We are not given more than we can handle. And Christ assures us that He is with us always, even unto the end of the age.
I don't know how much more obvious God can get. It is my perceptions, 'mis' or otherwise, that oftentimes get in the way of me truly seeing what the Lord has laid out for me. I am hesitant not because I don't trust God, but because I don't trust myself and my ability to make decisions. I know that I can, it is the act of doing that I seem to be shying away from.
I must take heed of the words, "Fear not, for I am with thee: turn not aside, for I am thy God: I have strengthened thee, and have helped thee, and the right hand of my just one hath upheld thee." -Isaiah 41:10.
Or these great words from the Old Testament that have always brought comfort to me, "My son, when you come to serve the LORD, prepare yourself for trials. Be sincere of heart and steadfast, undisturbed in time of adversity. Cling to him, forsake him not; thus will your future be great. Accept whatever befalls you, in crushing misfortune be patient; For in fire gold is tested, and worthy men in the crucible of humiliation. Trust God and he will help you; make straight your ways and hope in him. You who fear the LORD, wait for his mercy, turn not away lest you fall. You who fear the LORD, trust him, and your reward will not be lost. You who fear the LORD, hope for good things, for lasting joy and mercy. Study the generations long past and understand; has anyone hoped in the LORD and been disappointed? Has anyone persevered in his fear and been forsaken? has anyone called upon him and been rebuffed? Compassionate and merciful is the LORD; he forgives sins, he saves in time of trouble." -Sirach 2:1-11.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Discerning
How do we know that what we are doing is, in fact, the Will of God? How can we completely unite ourselves to His love and His Will? Is that even a remote possibility this side of the veil?
Life, I have come to realize, is just one big discernment process. Even at the most basest of levels. Even in the most mundane everyday things, there is a process of discernment. Do I put on this shirt or that one? Eat this for breakfast or that? Go to sleep or keep reading? Though seemingly unimportant, I believe that the process perfects itself and helps you to decide when it really matters. Practice, as they say (whoever 'they' are), makes perfect.
Jesus Himself, had periods of intense discernment. Think about His time in the desert for 40 days or about His prayers in the Garden before His Passion. God Himself, in virtue of His humanity, had to discern the Father's Will. He knew what He had to do, and still asked if the cup would pass. But the key was complete and total loving submission to the plan of the Father. That is what I want to do. ('Course, J.C. was God and knew what exactly was going to happen. I don't have the luxury.)
I am only concerned with what God's plan is for me. I am entirely in His hands right now. I know that my life also includes me and my wants and desires. I've said it before, if I conform myself so intimately with His Will, my will becomes His. Or something like that. That's true freedom.
I just wish sometimes that he would drop a letter on down telling me what exactly to do. I suppose that's what it means to have Faith. Faith in God that He will lead me to what He wants for my life. Faith that I will be able to act accordingly to His Will.
St. Louis-Marie de Montfort -- Pray for us!
Check out this link to Fr. Longenecker's blog about the still small voice in discerning. I love God!
Life, I have come to realize, is just one big discernment process. Even at the most basest of levels. Even in the most mundane everyday things, there is a process of discernment. Do I put on this shirt or that one? Eat this for breakfast or that? Go to sleep or keep reading? Though seemingly unimportant, I believe that the process perfects itself and helps you to decide when it really matters. Practice, as they say (whoever 'they' are), makes perfect.
Jesus Himself, had periods of intense discernment. Think about His time in the desert for 40 days or about His prayers in the Garden before His Passion. God Himself, in virtue of His humanity, had to discern the Father's Will. He knew what He had to do, and still asked if the cup would pass. But the key was complete and total loving submission to the plan of the Father. That is what I want to do. ('Course, J.C. was God and knew what exactly was going to happen. I don't have the luxury.)
I am only concerned with what God's plan is for me. I am entirely in His hands right now. I know that my life also includes me and my wants and desires. I've said it before, if I conform myself so intimately with His Will, my will becomes His. Or something like that. That's true freedom.
I just wish sometimes that he would drop a letter on down telling me what exactly to do. I suppose that's what it means to have Faith. Faith in God that He will lead me to what He wants for my life. Faith that I will be able to act accordingly to His Will.
St. Louis-Marie de Montfort -- Pray for us!
Check out this link to Fr. Longenecker's blog about the still small voice in discerning. I love God!
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